Photo of a wrist with a white medical alert bracelet with the word 'hope' written in pink.
Breast Cancer,  Life After Cancer

Cancer, Juggling, and Learning to Catch all the Balls

Cancer and juggling – not too often you would put those words together.  But today, a fellow WordPress Blogger**, who has just started the cancer fight, posted today regarding the fact that she felt like a juggler who was tossing balls up in the air and was afraid she was not going to be able to catch them all as they came down.  This struck a huge cord with me today as I struggle with severe neuropathy in my feet, and body aches and pain.  Reminds of what I went through when receiving my Taxol Chemotherapy.

Cancer Fighters are Jugglers

I loved her analogy though – feeling like a juggler, because I think it perfectly fits our life after cancer.  This was my answer to her:

“Yes, the anesthesia is wearing off. Yes, you are throwing a ton of balls in the air. And yes, you will catch them. Perhaps not all at once, or in the order you thought you would, but you will. The C-word does that to your life unfortunately. It changes it around so that just when you think you’ve got it all figured out, another ball drops and you have to catch that one and you go, oh sh*t; here we go again. And it’s all good. Because we will get through, we will survive, and we will be scrappier and more of a fighter than ever before. Hugs!”

Photo of a wrist with a white medical alert bracelet with the word 'hope' written in pink and a pink cancer ribbon

It was a good reminder for me.  I unfortunately have different balls in the air than many others, but it is all good.  I will catch them.  Of that I have no doubt.  After all, I have caught everything thrown my way so far.  Why would that change now?

Until next time, capture life kreatively!


**The post I am referring to is from Cutscenes and you can find that here.

At 50 years old I was diagnosed with Triple Negative Breast Cancer. I am currently NED (no evidence of disease), and trying to spend every day reviewing the world through the new lens I wear as a breast cancer survivor.


  • Melvin

    Thanks for charging those thoughts. I survived children’s cancer as a teenager and I still fight with the pain the treatment left me with. I work as a circus teacher, and juggle almost every day. I see the similarity, but I have never thought about it before.

  • Myra

    Melvin – congratulations on beating the effing cancer. I have to admit that until the other writer mentioned it, I hadn’t thought of it either. I love when your perspective can change simple because of what someone else says. Thanks for reading my post! Myra

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